____Mystified Nutcracker's Thoughts___

The casted one, good or bad it's in your own eyes. ______

May it be the start of my right direction
Bring me and guide me through a clearer path of life

May success find its way here
like how I've always prayed for the lucky chance to come by

May all do realise the different sides and angles of me
step into my dimension now

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Life's a roller-coaster,either you enjoy it or you don't

Thank god we're all lucky enough to choose our rides

[[*. My World Will Be Colourless Without You Guys .*]]

Thursday, August 31, 2006
1:20 AM
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All's been a roller coaster ride. So immensed, so tensed and so packed. I'm SO JAMMED right now. Screw the rest of the other nonsense. I have him and he's with me to go through the nonsense. Let's take a peek at my bloody jammed system now:

1)Workload.School's been great but some shitt are so hard to do.But so far so good.
2)Hockey..Why is the capt leaving when I feel that she is that pillar of the team?
3)Money money money...I'm so drained from cash..
4)Church seems so hard up now..It's so...all tight and argh.Stressed.

It's been a fucking while since I felt stress.

Finally, I just got myself 2 long wanted cds to chill myself at home. But it seems like whenever the cds are played, conflicts arises...Don't tell me. I know. Whatever.

Mood meter: Feeling fucked.
Music: Time by Paul Cardoll

Kimmmmmm......

[[*. CoLouRs FadiNg aWay fRom mY woRld .*]]

Tuesday, August 22, 2006
2:00 AM
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Blah.Blimey. Great dream,good fun. That's all. Yeah.

Haven't been updating much recently but school has been busy,well busy-good. haha.Maybe it's because I've been doing projects with my classmates and loving my work.No math.haha. Things have been so tight but yet smooth for me.Don't ask me why, I can't explain it either.

I hope the class stays this way, it's good there isn't much cliques and we're all chunking up together whenever we go out. Pretty cool and yet heavy-weighted sometimes when looking for a seat.haha.

Alright got to go now.

Mood meter: Exhilarated.
Music:The Enchantment by Australis

xoxo
kim

[[*. CoLouRs FadiNg aWay fRom mY woRld .*]]

Thursday, August 10, 2006
3:50 AM
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It was GRRRRREAT! I had one of the best nights at Tanjong beach ever! Thank you so much! It was really memorable. =)

We went to Villa Bali for dinner at first, where the things are so outrageously expensive. Like a cup of coke costs $7.00??? Yeah. Then I ordered Irish coffee and we both had a glass of eaglehawk chardonnay each. I was serving this wine all my time at Giraffe and now I finally get to drink it.haha

Then we headed down to tanjong beach, chilled for awhile and then played 'Busted.' I ended up drunk. Thank god I puked before I got on the cab and he sent me home. I shan't fill in the other details.. ;) hehe.

Anyways this could be another fantasy again. Like the ones before. At Sky Garden and then POOF! MIA for a period of time again. But maintaining it this way is good enough. We'll see what comes out good of it. Haha.

Mood Meter: HAPPY.
Music: Prayin' For Daylight by Rascal Flatts

XOXOXOXO
KIMMY

[[*. CoLouRs FadiNg aWay fRom mY woRld .*]]

Tuesday, August 08, 2006
1:55 AM
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I think I've found the solution to my answer.Yeah. Hopefuly all things go well and bliss will fall upon again. Sweets.

Anyways, I met my PRIMARY school friends!Yeah, primary. elementray people.Whatever you call them. ALL GROWN UP!gosh. Am I lacking behind in anyhow?haha. I don't think so when the boobies are still getting bigger.hah. ;p I love to see how things evolve and morph. Changes changes changes. From tank tops to blouses? I picked out more blouses today while shopping with Mommy.( Okay, I still call Mommy. ) Yeah. I can practically see myself clicking in heels, handling Chanels and LV handbags and oh what the hell, I might just end up with Bossini and Giordano if I don't make it.

And for now, just indulge and have fun being a kid, a teen, a light-weighted responsible stage. Great stage! Have fun, and when I'm 30 and flirty, even more fun! *snickers.

Mood Meter: Perky.
Music: What Am I to You by Norah Jones

xoxo
kimberly

[[*. CoLouRs FadiNg aWay fRom mY woRld .*]]

Thursday, July 27, 2006
12:50 AM
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If you have a choice, which would you choose?

a) A relationship that you command in your hands, the man is crazier for you than you are for him. He can give you ANYTHING you want. Almost the perfect guy most girls would want and you rule. BUT he isn't the one you're willing to provide unconditional love for. He just isn't the one.

b)A relationship where you aren't even sure if you're going to get ditched someday. You don't rule, he does. But you're loving him every minute and providing him unconditional love. You get annoyed and tired of it sometimes, but you just can't help it cause he's the one.

Well that's what love is isn't it? But would you REALLY choose to suffer than enjoy?Either ways you are in a relationship but you're definitely more promised with endless showers of love with the guy you don't really love. Would you choose to live in fear that things may go out of hand with your man someday? But he is the one you REALLY wanna be with. Or would you choose to be with the one where, whether things go out of hand or not, it's up to you. Leader ? Or waiter?

Help.
Lost 17. Really 17.

Mood meter: confused,feeling messed up
Music: I wish I'm listening to Someone there for Me by Rebecca Blaylock right now.

Kim.

[[*. CoLouRs FadiNg aWay fRom mY woRld .*]]

Monday, July 24, 2006
3:55 PM
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Back from the chalet! It was a whole lot of blast! Pumping energy around and people were swimming and dipping alot. Then Alex caught a fish from the pond and released it into the pool!haha.It was crazy. We threw in pail, pots and pans, a scuba diving gear to play with. Played 'KINGS' and some of us got all high and drunk. Then it was time to sleep at like what? 6am?!HA.

Anyways all fun is over now. I'm back to studying and school is really cool. Except for the stupid timetable my class got. School on Mon-SAT!!Dammit. The teacher better be good in return. Whereas my friend's class got two days off coz the modules are al clumped into one.Oh wells. I'll be completing my year 1 by next year April. Then here comes new block! =D

After the orientation today, alexius and I went out for lunch. Made new friends, Dephanie from my class and Kenny from VS1L. We talked alot in Carl's Jr. and this guy Kenny really has wise stuff to tell us. Well I guess that's because he's 23 and had come quite a long way.He even went to jc before but felt that arts was more of his kinda thing.He said there are basically two kinds of people you'll see in an art college:

1. Dresses outrageouly like a pro-fashion designer but has got nothing filled inside.
2.Dresses normal but they're are the quality ones,or so how it is being put. Not poseurs.

There. I'm hope I fell into cat. 2. hahah.

Mood meter: Adrenaline rush! I can't wait for projects to starts!
Music:Pump it by B.E.P

xoxoxo
Kimberly

[[*. CoLouRs FadiNg aWay fRom mY woRld .*]]

Thursday, July 20, 2006
12:55 AM
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"Leng Mei Ling you stand up!"

And so I did. It was the time when I got scolded in class for not respecting the teacher and even worse, I demanded respect from her.

"No,you slapped my head when I was sleeping so I demand respect from you."

Silly eh? And I was fuming mad. Stubborn in head and well stil half awake and the teacher went on saying

"You've been disrespecting me everytime you sleep in my class.Do you think I should give it to you?You earn it,not get it for free.Now go to the back!"

I walked to the back of the class reluctantly, feeling a little remorseful but still looking cool.Haha. Pai seh what. Of course have to still look smart what! :p
Anyways, get back to serious-ness. After that shitty incident which left me thinking real deep, even when I fell asleep while standing.It led me to realise that I need this direction in my life in future. If I must survive in this world then I have to be. Step out of my cocoon and start stretching far, with respect re-implanted in me and start earning others now. 10. I was 10. Well of course many things still fell here and there until I really utilised it when I was 14. Still 14. Hello?!

I'm really crushed today. I'm sorry to myself. Yeah. Why does people around me keep slamming zero points of respect in my life? =(

Mood meter: Disappointed. Crushed. Whatever.
Music: If you're not the one by Daniel Bedingfield.

Kim.

[[*. CoLouRs FadiNg aWay fRom mY woRld .*]]